Barefoot

You walk out of sight,
Your feet barely touch the ground.
I look at you,
I yell,
I scream,
But you don’t hear,
Don’t answer,
Don’t stop.

Maybe you are trying to make me forget you,
Don’t you see I’m still shaking knowing that I lost you?
This loss is so painful. I cannot handle it,
I’m running now barefoot.
 
Did we even say goodbye?
I do not know anything anymore.
 
Maybe the universe rewards me with new shoes,
But I do not want them,
Not even borrowed ones.
I want them to be mine,
Adjusted for me,
To last forever,
To be always by my side,
To take me everywhere,
To not let me down,
To keep my feet warm when it’s cold,
Cool them down when it’s too hot,
To let me wear them when I want,
And to remove it when I need,
Shoes that don’t hurt me,
More than I can handle.
 
I want such shoes,
But I’m afraid I’ll lose them,
As I’ve already done.
 
I am a poor and sad creature,
In the end, I always bear all the costs,
And I fall steeply to the bottom,
Like now.
 
I’m looking for a way out,
And I become inert.
Who wants to go back to that?
 
It hurts me when you leave.
Life is sad and unjust,
I keep all troubles and injustices inside.
Maybe that’s my destiny,
Perhaps I need to stay barefoot.
 
I do not want new shoes,
I’m getting used to being barefoot.
 
But maybe, just maybe,
I’ll accept some borrowed because it’s winter,
Only temporary, don’t worry,
I don’t know if I’ll manage barefoot when it’s cold.
Do you understand?
 
On second thought,
Why would I even think of the borrowed shoes?
Why wouldn’t I stay yours?
Whether you want me or not?
Why would I accept something I know won’t bring you back?
Why would I settle for something my heart doesn’t want?
 
Without you, it hurts too much,
But I have made up my mind,
If I can’t have yours,
I’d rather stay barefoot,
As I love you too much.